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Wednesday, September 7th, 2011

Time:5:22 pm.
Well, she's in a relationship now. I didn't get a chance to ask her out. Not that it matters, I'm sure. I'm sure she wouldn't have gone out with me, why the fuck would she, or any girl? I just wish I could've gotten a chance to ask so I could've done it. So I could know.

So, once again, I'm the only single person in the vicinity. I'm the biggest fucking loser ever. There's no one out there for me. I'm going to die miserable and alone.

Fuck I hate everything.
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Saturday, December 4th, 2010

Time:8:43 pm.
Here's some more video from the Faith No More concert:

Ashes To Ashes

Midlife Crisis

We Care A Lot
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Sunday, April 11th, 2010

Time:10:17 pm.
I leave tomorrow. Kinda nervous, having never traveled before. Not nervous about flying, but things going wrong like missing flights, delays. I only have 30 minutes between flights in LA, so if we should be delayed for some reason here...fuck.

Carry on and checking luggage. I've packed a bag that should fit carry on and then bring my camera as my personal item (I looked at the website and they say purses and so I would think my camera bag could fit under that description. And put my laptop in my bag. But what if the bag DOESN'T fit carry on? Then my bag and laptop have to get checked and my bag and laptop get thrown around by the throwers, I don't trust those fuckers one bit, and if my laptop gets damaged or stolen? These are the things I think about. Not crashing. Crashing is so rare, it's those little things that happen all the time that you should be scared of. Or the bag does fit but they don't accept the camera bag as a personal item...well, then what?

These are the things that make me nervous.

I would just rather not check baggage so I know it won't get lost. I'm a light enough packer, I don't require much. Just enough to get me through the days to wear with a couple options for weather (though looking at the forecast, the weather in both Chicago and Pittsburgh should be fine for my time there...but weather forecasts have been known to be wrong...from time to time...oh dear (I couldn't resist a little Star Wars reference there, it fit so well I think)).

And just the procedures of checking in, boarding passes...never had to go through this stuff. It's unknown to me. And these little procedural things make me nervous. You don't want to fuck up and look like a total noob and create problems.

This should be interesting and fun. Hopefully.
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Monday, November 9th, 2009

Time:9:24 pm.
The Fourth Kind
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Wednesday, October 28th, 2009

Time:5:26 pm.
Zombieland
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Monday, October 19th, 2009

Time:5:23 pm.
Because I enjoyed my brief time reviewing movies, I've decided to start doing it for myself. I started a blog, called Reviews For No One, to post my reviews on. Will try to do one a week, but if there's nothing to see, then...oh well.

First up: Where The Wild Things Are
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Sunday, August 9th, 2009

Subject:Writer's Block: Unlikely Benefactor
Time:1:53 am.
Congratulations! You won a million dollars but you have to give it all away. How will you distribute the money?
School arts and music programs.
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Sunday, July 19th, 2009

Time:2:46 am.
I just finished watching the first Harry Potter movie and just started the second. Just a couple things spring to mind...if they can't practice magic outside of Hogwarts, what exactly is the purpose of going to Hogwarts to learn magic? I mean, sure, some of them will obviously end up working at the school...but have you seen how many students there are and how few faculty there are? What of the rest?

And why is Harry's family so dead set against him going away? They don't like him, shouldn't they be glad and want him to go away to Hogwarts so he's out of their hair? It seems backwards for them to not like him, treat him so poorly, but be all 'you have to stay here!' Logic would say that they'd want to be rid of him. Let him go to the school and during the summers he can stay with friends. There, they never have to worry about him intruding upon their lives again.

Just a couple thoughts I had. At this point, so far, I'm still rather indifferent to it.
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Saturday, July 4th, 2009

Time:3:03 pm.
Today some people from Watchtower came to talk about the Bible. I'm wearing an Iron Maiden shirt. These people only come when I'm wearing something satanic. This shirt or Black Sabbath. Every time they come by and I answer the door, I'm wearing one of those shirts.

Also makes me glad I told the dog to 'shut the front door' instead of 'shut the fuck up' next to an open window when they had a kid with them.
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Wednesday, June 10th, 2009

Subject:Writer's Block: Last Meal
Time:4:17 pm.
What do you want your last meal to be?


Never ending.
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Tuesday, June 2nd, 2009

Time:4:52 pm.
I want to die. Can this miserable, pointless existence end already?
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Tuesday, May 19th, 2009

Time:4:57 pm.
Megan's mom e-mailed me today asking to buy my ticket off me. Megan's talked to me before about them talking about and wanting to go to a game together, as a mother/daughter thing. So I know it'd mean a lot to both of them (though, it only matters to me that it means a lot to Megan). But, you know...I've been looking forward to this for a month. But I'd feel like a dick now if I went.

And it just highlights how every time I try to do something, it just won't work out. I'll either be a dick or sit around feeling miserable because I'm not going.

I don't know what to do. Either way, I don't win.

The world hates me. What the fuck did I do to piss it off so much?

I hate my stupid fucking life. I don't know why I fucking bother. I can't win. No one gives a shit if I self sacrifice. I'm going to be alone forever because all I can be is a friend.

Fuck life.
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Thursday, May 14th, 2009

Time:10:22 pm.
girls want confidence...of course, they have no problem tearing it down with 'no's...and lots of problems, apparently, with building any with any actual encouragement.
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Sunday, April 12th, 2009

Time:7:06 pm.
A good, fun weekend in Northridge.

Only takes about an hour back in Lompoc for me to be absolutely miserable again. I hate this place.
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Thursday, March 26th, 2009

Subject:Writer's Block: Personal Strength
Time:10:06 pm.
Where do you find your personal strength?
I didn't know I had any.
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Thursday, March 12th, 2009

Time:4:53 pm.
Jesus...the poison has spread a little. There's now a new patch on my hand. Naturally, I'm rather paranoid about it. Afraid the infection will return. Ugh...why won't it go away?
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Thursday, February 26th, 2009

Time:10:12 pm.
If I had to guess, I don't think I'll be able to go into work tomorrow. My left arm is swelled up. Not feeling well at all.
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Friday, February 13th, 2009

Time:4:41 pm.
A LOL I made has made the front page of ROFLRAZZI, which is part of icanhascheezburger.com.

And for some lame reason, this brings me great pride.

funny pictures
moar funny pictures
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Tuesday, February 3rd, 2009

Time:5:40 pm.
The local paper easily has a 3-to-1 ratio of op-ed articles/letters to the editor against Obama to articles/letters for Obama. *shakes head*

It may even be greater than 3-to-1. *shakes head more*

Everyday it's an op-ed article or letter to the editor about how bad/wrong Obama is about whatever he's doing.

At least he's trying something different.
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Monday, December 8th, 2008

Time:6:16 pm.
I feel alone. I never hear about anyone I know getting shot down. I know people do...just, apparently, no one I know. It's apparently just me. Everyone else just kind of seems to go from relationship to relationship with the greatest of ease, not even trying (then there's the married ones...). And I'm the only one getting shot down time and time and time and time and time and time again. No success of any kind.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? WHY AM I THE ONLY FUCKING ONE?

Why doesn't anyone like me?
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